Hiya, i have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression for 12 years and have now been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder. They said i have used self destructive behaviour since my early teens when i cant cope. i overdosed on prescription drugs and died twice a year ago, its not the only time, if things are bad i drink, take drugs, put myself in vunrable situations, have sex with the wrong people, dont eat or comfort eat... all sorts. It's never been too bad but the past few months i have done things i didn't even do when i was homeless in my teens! I went to a strange man's house miles away, went to a hotel with a man i had met online and i smoked heroin several times. the only reason i have stopped smoking it is because i cant get any and it scares me! i have never ever felt so relaxed! Even when i was in my teens and took lsd, lighter gas ect i never touched coke or heroin. i have a drug councellor cause of my cannabis use but im scared what would happen if i told her about the heroin, i have kids, will it kick off??? will she help?? i see a cpn fortnightly but other than them i get no therapy just a load of meds from my consultant. i know i need help but there's not alot available here and im scared to admit how bad i feel! any advice please????