And by Eating Disorder, I do not just mean Anorexia or Bulimia, because I don't have either. Eating Disorder can mean anything pertaining to not having what is considered to be a 'normal' relationship with food. Personally my eating disorder started at a very early age. When my parents were having problems, my mum would shut us up with food. Take away, junk food etc. She'd let us eat whatever we wanted by way of guilt and of course this caused my brother and I to be obese children, teenagers and now adults. He struggles with his weight but has somewhat embraced it and decided there is nothing he can do about it, so he may as well eat... and that he does. I on the other hand binge and purge, go for days without eating, binge and then get upset, spend my time drinking alcohol so I am too hungover to eat/can't keep anything down, have even done drugs so I don't feel hungry. My weight is the bane of my existence and is the major cause of all of my problems. I can't blame my mum because she was trying her hardest as a parent, and nobody is perfect. It's just a shame the thing she did to try and help did the complete opposite. So it pretty much all goes back to over-eating as a child and then being bullied by everybody - friends/family/strangers throughout my childhood and teens (and even now, as a 26 year old woman) for being fat. :lone: I hate being fat, I am sick to death of being fat and it does feel like reason enough to end my life.