I am Bipolor and this means I am manic-depressive. When I'm manic I belive grandiose thoughts like I am a resurecction of a prophet, Gods gift to women, knowing peoples feelings instinctively and things similar to this. I've been hospitalized 4 times for manic episodes but now things have gotten better. When I'm depressed and low it gets to the point where I'm suicidal. I've tried to commit suicide 4 times in my life. I have been hospitalized once for suicidal thoughts. But now things are better. What I was depressed about when I was younger was that my bipolor affected the way i thought. I would get strange thoughts in my head like in grade school when someone was hitting my chair I would feel I wasn't in my body. It's almost like a out of body experience. When I got teased I would just take it to the point where the stinging heart in my chest would feel normal. I would make pro's and con's on whether or not to try to kill myself but thankfully I never attempted. When I got older around the ages of 20-22 yrs of age, this past I had caused me to try to suffocate myself and drown myself. But now things are better... So what causes your depression?