I'm having this voice in my head that's telling what I should do and don't. It gets mad if I don't stick to its rules, and I have to punish myself regularly. I cannot talk to anyone about how I feel, I can absolutely not have any social contacts, I can't be happy, I can't do this, do that... It's restraining me, but when I ignore it, it yells at me I should commit suicide, jump out of the window, scream like hell, hurt myself and telling me that I wanted it to stop, right? Then I'd have to kill myself. I hate it, and I'd like to know what it is, and if it even is a disorder. Does anybody has an idea?