I find myself, again, in an unwinnable situation. I am trapped in an abusive relationship. I have no money or job to leave. I have a kid and a dog that I can't leave, but I can't take it any more. I'm tired of being poor. I could get a crappy job, but I'd have to quit school to do that and I'll never afford to pay off my loans. My kid's dad (ex) stole my identity years back. He took every dime I had and stole my credit. I was left destitute and pregnant. I can't afford bankruptcy. I can't pay "my" old bills, let alone any new ones.That's how I wound up trapped with this guy. I'm raising his kids, but he is an alcoholic with mental health problems. He counters everything I try to teach his kids with negative behavior. They show me little to no respect. They lie, steal and the oldest gets into trouble at school all the time. They are becoming as deceitful and manipulative as he is. I'd go to another homeless shelter, but I can't leave my dog behind. I know he'll kill her. He won't allow me any money to get clothes, tampons, food on campus (there's not much here to eat. He refuses to buy healthy food and allows the kids to eat over processed junk food almost solely, which contributes to their bad behavior.). I am not allowed to talk to certain friends. He reads my texts and emails and if he sees something he doesn't like, I get shit for months to follow. I haven't seen my family in years. He threatens to shut off my phone (the only thing he does provide aside from this roof over my head). I need it to keep up with my studies and campus groups. He constantly tells me how I treat him terribly. How I lie and it's all my fault that he's a miserable drunk. He refuses to acknowledge the torture he put me through that got me to the point of trying to avoid him at all costs. He is obsessed with the paranoia that I'm having an affair (he realizes he treats me like shit and I deserve better?) I have not one thin dime to leave. I can't finish school and work and take care of my kid. I don't want to hurt my kid, but I can't see anyway out of this. I've been destitute for years. I've been on welfare and have lived in a few homeless shelters. I know if I could take my dog, I'd go back just for a chance to get my life back. But, I can't find a good home for her. I just can't find a way out. I've been hanging on for years, waiting until I graduate and find a job to leave. I don't think I can ever find a job that will pay enough to repair my credit and get out of debt while living on my own. His behavior is distracting me from my school work. I can't focus. My grades are going down. If not for my kid, I'd be dead right now. On the same coin, if I didn't have this wonderful child, I'd not be in this situation. I've lost my independence. I've lost my identity. I've lost my dignity. All I have is my kid and my dog and I'm incapable of taking care of them. I have lost all hope of every feeling happy, loved or safe again.