[[i realise its been a really long time since i last posted but life has been pretty hectic. im sorry.]]
ive gained 9 pounds. and i actually feel like i could kill myself right now. even after i weighed myself i went and ate some more. i cant seem to get out of this cycle and this has been happening for about a month now. im so huge and my skin is really bad. its disgiusting. im so ashamed that ive let myself do this. and i cant seem to stop.
its my formal next week. i flipping hate formals. everyone looks so beautiful. i look crap. why do i even care about the formal? my boyfriend dumped me last week anyway. its not as if ive got a date anymore. ive never had a boyfriend before, i never let myself become attached 2 any boy because im smarter than that. only this time i did let myself get involved. and look at me now. im fat and i cant get over him.
im going 2 shut up now. im sure ur bored of hearing my problems (i should know! im bored of having them!)
please reply :sad:
xoxox
ive gained 9 pounds. and i actually feel like i could kill myself right now. even after i weighed myself i went and ate some more. i cant seem to get out of this cycle and this has been happening for about a month now. im so huge and my skin is really bad. its disgiusting. im so ashamed that ive let myself do this. and i cant seem to stop.
its my formal next week. i flipping hate formals. everyone looks so beautiful. i look crap. why do i even care about the formal? my boyfriend dumped me last week anyway. its not as if ive got a date anymore. ive never had a boyfriend before, i never let myself become attached 2 any boy because im smarter than that. only this time i did let myself get involved. and look at me now. im fat and i cant get over him.
im going 2 shut up now. im sure ur bored of hearing my problems (i should know! im bored of having them!)
please reply :sad:
xoxox