what did i do to deserve this?

[[i realise its been a really long time since i last posted but life has been pretty hectic. im sorry.]]

ive gained 9 pounds. and i actually feel like i could kill myself right now. even after i weighed myself i went and ate some more. i cant seem to get out of this cycle and this has been happening for about a month now. im so huge and my skin is really bad. its disgiusting. im so ashamed that ive let myself do this. and i cant seem to stop.

its my formal next week. i flipping hate formals. everyone looks so beautiful. i look crap. why do i even care about the formal? my boyfriend dumped me last week anyway. its not as if ive got a date anymore. ive never had a boyfriend before, i never let myself become attached 2 any boy because im smarter than that. only this time i did let myself get involved. and look at me now. im fat and i cant get over him.

im going 2 shut up now. im sure ur bored of hearing my problems (i should know! im bored of having them!)
please reply :sad:

xoxox

 

Hi,
I dont really know wat to say to reply but i saw this post and wanted to say something. :hug: I'm sorry your weight is getting you down and you are feeling ugly, i'm sure that isnt true, everyone is beautiful in their own way (ugh that sounds so cheesy!). I'm sorry there isnt more i can say :hug:
I hope u feel more positive soon
Take care
L1