Obviously I know what I did in a literal sense. I overdosed on <Mod Edit - Acy - methods>. I know the rule about posting methods, but as I did not say the specific names of the pills I took, or the dosages, I believe I did not break that rule. If I did however I understand if moderators edit this post. I honestly don't know what I was thinking. It is my belief that this isn't uncommon. Humans do stupid things all the time and it is only afterwards that they actually think about what they did and start posing pointless "what if, why did I, etc" questions to themselves. But that doesn't matter. What matters is I think I attempted suicide, purposely overdosed with the intent not to get high, but to harm myself. I haven't attempted suicide in literally years. I was just so overwhelmed, my defenses were down. I looked at the safe, I saw that it was broken, that it was unlocked and I took the pills. And I swallowed all the pills Monday morning. Somehow I made it through school, though my balance was off and I was blinking in and out throughout the day. The real hell began when I had the last Cross Country meet of the year after school. I chose to ran it. I did horrible which is not a surprise considering my condition, but I did finish it. Physically I think I'm ok. I've spent the last two days at home recovering, my parents don't know the real reason why I'm not feeling well. I'm returning to school tomorrow.