What did you realise afterwards?

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  1. Failure

    Failure Well-Known Member

    If you have lived through a suicide attempt, what have you now realised? Do you now believe that it was the wrong thing to do, do you now believe you have a place in this world? Do you now see that people love you, do you now see how it would have affected them if you were successful?
     
  2. Bruces

    Bruces Well-Known Member

    I've never attempted but I know what it would do to family and I know I am loved but it doesn't make life anymore bearable,I still don't consider myself to be worthy of living I doubt I could attempt but I do pray for a premature end to this suffering
     
  3. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I have realised I made a horrible mistake in the spur of a moment, I've realised that I am loved and wanted and am a good sister,daughter,aunt,friend, I regret what I did terribly, worst mistake of my life. Putting my family through that was just so wrong but at least I am here to tell the tale, i was lucky, it could have been much worse, brain damage or death.

    I see all those things,I would have missed out on so much, my family would have been destroyed. Yes, I do believe I have a place in this world, my place is here helping people make the right choices and decisions, I want to be a paramedic or something similar, I want to help people make the right decisions and see the light at the end of the tunnel because it IS there.
     
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  4. 880088

    880088 Member

    This is a semi-serious reply. The next morning after my attempt I realized that I had unintentionally attempted suicide on my ex's birthday. I had completely forgotten about it. I only picked that day was because I was scheduled to work the next evening and the thought of going through another day in the service industry (I was a bartender at a shady place) was enough to push me to make my attempt. Says a lot about me that I was mostly relieved I avoided the embarrassment of succeeding and people thinking I did it over him. Ha.
     
  5. I like the bit of levity in your reply, 880088. :p

    It's weird because you can't even imagine who it might affect. I think about people I didn't even know who killed themselves.
     
  6. Insomniac2012

    Insomniac2012 Member

    How much I want to. I keep thinking if only if only i wish.

    It seems many people see life better after a close call but I have not had any decrease in desire for death after any of my attempts.
     
  7. DrownedFishOnFire

    DrownedFishOnFire Quieta non movere

    The quote I saw the other day pretty much summed it up for me...


    Suicide is taking away your pain and giving it to someone else
     
  8. AAA3330

    AAA3330 Well-Known Member

    My only regret is that it wasn't successful. I don't have the guts to do anything too drastic, though I really want to die.
     
  9. ThinBlueFlame

    ThinBlueFlame Member

    That makes sense and I've seen it worded different ways but for some reason that particular quote was like a punch in the gut (in a good way). I'll have to remember this one. Thanks for posting it.
     
  10. BornAgain

    BornAgain Well-Known Member

    It was the worst decision I've ever taken. People do love me, a lot and I stay away from those that hurt me. My children and family would have been devastated, my children would have ended killing themselves out of despair. I see life like a third chance (I was an abortion attempt before), I appreciate everything more, I live to the fullest, I am full of universal love towards others and feel like living in heaven while on earth.
     
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