So right now I am a Junior in High school I was officially diagnosed with major depression freshman year. Not to mention I know I had depression since 7th grade but not Major. At home I have quite a situation where me and my parents hardly communicate for small things that my parents should tell me I search up internet because they never tell me anything I mean like I see myself growing up so much in last 3 years but they never said a single word about it. So than in 8th grade I started seeing a school Counselor as the year went by I got emotionally attached to her started looking at her as my Mom I would call her on her home phone everyday I would send her email everyday go see her in school every time I am free. I mean I started doing little things I thought was usually done between mother daughters. And than Freshman year rolled by I still kept in contact but the since she knew everyone in high school they found out about my and my counselors so to call it relationship and they forbid me from talking to her and so freshman and sophomore year I was mad at the entire world for that. Finally Junior year( this year) I managed to break the attachment I mean I still miss her today but I am not as sad as I had been Freshman or Sophomore year. I still would not mind seeing her but maybe once a month or so but obviously that's not gonna happen. But anyways I am finally happy the fact that I broke the bonding. But now I really want to have friends I mean I have tons of Hi friends in school but just for Hi I mean people says Hi to me all the time but they are not the people who I would call if I was planning to kill myself. I don't have ANYONE that I would call if I want to kill myself I mean ya I got a therapist but she would put me into a hospital and that would make my life worse. Plus I am looking for friends I don't she wants to be friends with me. My parents are never supportive about anything. I mean they are basically only helping me financially and of course to sign my school papers. So How should I find someone who can be there for me anytime I need someone. Because when I feel lonely only thing I could think of is killing myself and thats What I want to do right Now. I mean imagine hearing yourself talking to yourself all the time how boring can that get eventually a person gets sick of it and so am I.