I am so alone. I literally have no one is this world except for one person, and I am now losing her. She has been in a abusive marriage for 15-17 years, but finally she got the courage to leave, but under pressure from family she went back. She now plans to quit her job and move away, and thus I am losing the only light I have in my life. I have been suicidal for so many years now, but when she came in to my life we developed an instant bond. We would see each other every day and now all that is ending. How do I continue on when I am losing literally the only person that has kept me going. I feel so empty and alone that I just pray that I will not live to see another day. Some will say you should get out and meet people, but I know many people but I feel a close bond with only one. You can be in a room with 100 people but still be so alone. This is how I feel except when I am with her. So what do I do? I have worried myself sick and even sunk into deeper depression trying to help her with her situation, but finally I was able to accept her going back by telling myself maybe her husband has changed, but how can I accept her moving away before she finally sees if her really has changed. I am sorry for not explaining this better, but I just dont know how to anymore. So you see when I wake up in the mornings I really have nothing or no one. Why go on when there is so much pain.