i am 15 and have self harmed in the past but was able to stop for a while. Recently i started again coz i just dont know how to cope with my mum putting me down all the time, accusing me of things i havnt done and just shouting every night. She is an alcoholic but wont admit it, she is also diabetic so shouldnt be drinking at all. I do worry about her coz i have a younger brother 11 and sister 7 and she nearly died not too long ago from the diabetes and i feel like it is my fault coz i was asleep and woke up but went back to sleep. I should have got up and helped her. So i cut. With everything else as well its just getting me so down also my mums ex partener who moved out a few months ago was abusive towards my mum and me for 7 years and he was also an alcoholic. Could this be part of the reason my mum drinks?. I go into school and pretend that nothing is going on hiding the cuts. I want to move out when im 16 but it would cost alot and i dont know he i could leave my brother and sister on their own with her. What should i do, any advice would help.