I've been told that I'm "depressed" for as long as I can remember. Basically my entire life. I've been on medication twice. sure, it affects my mood. but it doesn't make my problems go away. I'm still dull, hideous, ridiculously awkward, and desperately, devastatingly lonely. maybe i've never actually been depressed. maybe i'm just very, very observant. anyway: my point is that pills, therapy, etc. can change how you feel about life but not your life itself. this isn't going to work, not for me. any ideas. i'm just about finished with this. sersiously, i no longer see a point. i feel as though i've reached an end.