I'm almost 15 years old. This summer I went through a bad time. My abusive (emotionally and physcially), meth addicted, shitty father tried getting back in my life, one of my best friends moved to AZ which is over 1000 miles away, and I had a incident with my mom calling the police on me cause I broke one of her jewler pieces (was worth like 50 dollars fuckin bitch), and I just fell into a depression. I come from a poor family and shit was getting rougher and rougher. Anyways, I started noticing when school came back I had trouble feeling emotions. I wasn't ever happy about things, I never cried when something sad happened (even when my grandpa died who I loved a lot), life seemed like I had a cloud in my brain, and I just didn't care about my goals. Things are still like this but ever since october or so I keep getting these weird urges to do random things, almost like I'm hyper but I just feel a lot happier and active, like the cloud has shown some sun. These stages only last 3 days at most and usually 1 day at minimum. When I'm in this optimistic attitude any sad thing throws me off and puts me back into a non emotional stage. I thought I was manic depressive. I asked my mother who told me I wasn't because these optimistic stages where to short of time and probably are just because I'm a teenager. Life is just so chaotic and I don't know whats wrong with me. At the moment my family doesn't have insurance so seeing a doctor or consular isn't possible. Do I have any type of mental illness or am I really just a growing boy :huh:? EDIT: I thought I should mention my family has history of mental illness. My father is paranoia schizophrenic and OCD and my mom has always suffered from clinical depression and she takes zoloft for it.