im so sorry butu it never is ok the drink dont numbs it enough anymore the drugs dont work the doctors and mental health junk dont work no friends, no life, no help everyone left me its too much of a battle, i just dont want to figh t it anymore. why should i? may be in another existence, may be in another dimension i will be ok and i willl see aimee again an d it will be ok but its not ok now. it just hurts all the time now physically and mentally. why go on when nothing ever gets better? im sorry.