I will die soon. I'm so scared to die but I have to. It's better than living in this pain. It's better than crying myself to sleep or not being able to cry some days. It's better than cutting to try to relieve the pain. No mater what I do the pain is still there. I don't have a choice. I found this website where there are methods and each method is explained and it's certainty is provided. I'm so tempted to use one of the methods. I'm scared of myself. I'm so scared. I just don't know what to do.