Nothing in life matters anymore. I'm usually so creative, but I've lost interest in just about everything. Recently divorced and moved to another state, haven't seen my 7 yr old son in over 3 months. The only positive in my life right now is my girlfriend. We're living with her parents cos her mom as cancer, so we help out around the house. She's very supportive and caring. I bought a package of sleeping pills a couple of days ago with the intent to take them. Then I remembered the crisis line; they told me to go to the nearest ER and get evaluated. I was going to, but I got scared that they might keep me and I wouldn't be able to see my girlfriend. So I went home and told her what was going on with me. We're both very miserable. We worked at the same job, a call center, and hate it. She still works there; I quit and am looking for something else. There's a lot of personal stuff going on with me, but it's more than that. Life on a fundamental aspect just isn't worth living. I hate it. I hate that, in order for me to live, something else has to die and I have to eat it. I hate that everyone has to strive to look and act like whatever's popular at the moment, and if you are even a little bit different then you are ridiculed. I hate the there is so much pain and suffering everywhere I look. Molestation, torture, hate crimes...I hate this world. And I want out. I'm trying to hold on for others' sake, but it's becoming less and less worth it.