I have only three people in my life that care about me and these are family members. What do you do when this is not enough. I have become so dead within myself that when they see I get so depressed and they tell me they love me it just does not matter to me. I just cannot make myself care. What do you do when you want more that a few family members to care about you? Does anyone understand what I am trying to say? Even though they are there I am still so alone with nobody. The past couple weeks have been the worst of my life. When you wake up everyday, and I do mean everyday feeling so alone with nobody how can you make yourself go on. Why would you even want to, because it is just so much pain. I know I am getting closer to the end, and I cannot wait.