what do you do when you just simply don't care to exist. you don't have the need to commit suicide nor have the real desire to. and death isn't a form of solace from pain or misery. but you just don't care to exist. i just feel so tired. i'm tired of fixing things. i'm tired of expelling energy. i'm tired of life. i don't care to go to heaven or hell. nor do i even care if i go nowhere. i just wish i was nothing and nowhere now.