Simple difficult question: What do you look forward to in your day? Thing I'm doing lately is my XBOX after work. It helps me keep my mind from where it likes to go and dwell all day. Thinking about starting guitar, that's been a start-stop for lots of years. So what is that part of the day you look forward to? First cigarette in the morning with coffee? Smut on the 'Net? I don't ever think about what I like in the day. Usually just too numb to care or fixated on dying.