My life has been so hard that sometimes I cannot believe that one person could go through such a huge amount of heartbreak and pain. This has been my life so far......... I was adopted from the age of three months. My new mother did not want another child, but in those days, you did what your husband wanted to do. As my mother did not want me she was emotionally and physically abusive toward me. My adoptive mother and father already had one child who was jealous of me and did not see me as part of the family. She became abusive toward me also. Then at the age of 12 I developed severe depression, which my mother and father did nothing to help. I then lost all my friends and had to cope with the abuse on my own. At the age of 16 I had a boyfriend who was abusive to me. At the age of 26 I found my birth mother and father and was reunited with them for 1 year, before they decided they did not want to see me anymore. I then had a psychotic episode because I was in emotional distress. At the age of 35, my three children were taken interstate by there father and I did not see them for years. It was devistating. At the age of 37, my husband at the time put a gun to his head and pulled the trigger right in front of me. I am now currently jobless and about to be evicted from my rental home. So, what do you think of my life? And people wonder why I want to kill myself.