I am here alive for one reason and that is my family. My siblings and parents are responsible for myself not committing suicide. Nobody in my life even knows what I'm feeling I have no therapist, no doctors, and no councilors. My parents are worried more about underage drinking with me than a possible suicide. I am current going into my sophomore year in highschool but what happens when I get out of highschool? What happens when I'm on my own in college with nobody to fucking turn to and nobody that gives a shit? All these assholes laugh at my pain at my school. I can't even focus on doing a fucking homework assignment with getting distracted and wasting 5 hours jerking around doing fucking nothing that's going to not fuck over my entire life. My parents have to sit next to me to get me to focus yet they say I don't have ADD. I can't believe I actually made it 15 years with nobody in my life to talk to and why nobody is fucking smart enough to figure out that I have anger issues and need help. I can't hide things that well and I'm sure as hell not going to tell anybody about it.