What do I have to do to be safe, to be able to walk the streets, go to work what ever just to be safe. There must be something about me that keeps atttracting men who just want to hurt women, children. I'm sick and tiered of it, I can't take anymore. The guy at work, the men who sexually attacked me last year, the guys who ra*ed me as an adult, the things that ase*ualy ab*sed me when I was younger. it doesn't stop, even today it continues to happen not to the same level as when I was a child but its still happening. I don't know what I done wrong, but it must have been evil to continue to get punished. If I live i'm punished. If i die I will find peace. I won't ever feel safe. I won't ever be safe. I'm going doctors and getting sleeping tablets to help me sleep..they should send me to sleep forever, at ,least I hope they will. I have to, I have to get this right. I cna't do anymore. my counsellor is off, I'm alone. there's nothing left of me.