I've dealt with depression for many years and has recently turned darker and stumbled across here in hope I can find someone to relate to. In most of my time I've had an simple problem of finding purpose in life. I've tried searching for it many ways : religion, family, friends, love, etc. Most have let me down, especially family who refuses to even see the struggles I go through. I'm currently at a time in life when everything should seem possible and any dream achievable. (Currently an college student ) But oddly, I find it an worse time for I don't know what to do with my life and am stuck with indecision. I'm everything you guys have dealt with what keeps you're drive in life? What motivates you not to give up in life or even simply get up in the morning?