Does anyone else feel they always seem to go around in circles? its probably one for older users here. For me 25 years ago I was under the care of an NHS psychiatric unit in the UK, I could never get along with my medication and it just became one of my issues. The whole thing just never worked for me so I discharged myself and sadly went on to have problems with alcohol and drugs. I owe so much to my wife, meeting her probably saved me, however this year I figured out that the issues never went away, they just became buried in a very shallow grave. Things have gone back to how they were, my emotional state is deeply impaired , I am so unhappy , depressed and self harming again and like so many here all I can think about is killing myself. I tried to get help from a self referral counselling service in West London, which was truly awful and actually made my issues worse. Does sticking with your GP and the NHS mental health care really pay off? its so hard to speak to a Dr, just imagine how their lives are different from yours, all their School, College, Uni and Med School the backing and support they must have had from their families and loved ones and you have to sit in front of them and tell them how shit your life is, I can’t do that now. When i was 22 I was homeless and my dad would not even let me live with him while I sorted myself out, how different is that from their life experiences and there is no way they will understand this. Also, no one lives for ever so why put so much effort in repairing something that’s temporal.