I don't really know much about anything anymore. It all seemed like life was going well. Boyfriend, university, job and friends. It certainly sounds superfluous I grant you. But then it all went to hell. Suddenly I'm single, then I'm suspended in work pending an investigation because I may be stealing from work which isn't true. They showed me cctv of me buying cigarettes and because they couldn't see my wallet over the till drawer from the camera, I'm suspended. Uni isn't going well as I failed to qualify for all three of my placements that I wanted and they aren't sure what to do with me. I'm single too. And I got really drunk one night, so drunk I don't remember much and apparently said something that lost me my best friend. I know I'm new. I know this all sounds stupid and not serious, but I don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired of being a failure, just when I finally got it all back together...I lost it all again. I don't know what else I can do. I'm tired of being kicked into the dirt to lose it all again, over and over and over. Eh, it's my first post. Sorry if I seem dramatic or whiny, just never posted anything like this before. But it's really like I'm at the bottom, and most of me just wants to sink into oblivion. I don't want to, but it just seems like the best idea.