I don't think I am in what I would call a full blown crisis at this moment but I have been on that "metaphorical" ledge more than once and didn't make the call a few weeks ago, I'm still here but I feel like a pressure cooker on which the release valve has broken. I know an inevitable explosion is barreling down the tracks at me rather fast. So, if I make that call to a crisis hotline, my therapist, what will happen? Will the police be called? Will my number be traced? Will it go out on the police radio am I going to get arrested? Hospitalized? I hate the unknown almost as much as I hate my life right now Are they going to track me down from my posts here?