Aside from all the torment and suffering and devastion we leave behind for our family and friends, what happens to us, when we die? Specifically when we kill ourselves? Well...for a couple of months after my wife left I was obsessed with death. I read everything I could on the subject. I even spent a lot of time at that website that shows celebrities grave sites. Anyway...I stumbled across a site about NDE's (Near Death Experiences). These are documented case studies of people who died and came back. Now....I know, I was skeptical too. Afterall I have heard the arguements. It is just the brian firing electonic impulses as we die and that we are just being flooded with the info we learned about death from before. The long tunnel, the white light etc. Yet.....a lot of those case studies were not anything like the old long tunnel, white light deal. In most cases people were surrounded in a darkness. Anyway....for our purposes we will discuss what happens to people who commit suicide. Now, a lot of the subjects talked about a holding place an area of grey fog kinda of like a purgatory. I don't remember where I read it, but I do recall that a person was given the option of remaining in the afterlife seperated from God for all eternity or, going back to Earth to fix the problems that led to the suicide..or...starting all over again as a baby in a new human form, and having to experience all the exact same problems again that led the person to suicide. And another possible concern for us is the accountability factor. Here is an excerpt from one person's NDE; "I learned that just as there are laws of nature, of physics and probability, there are laws of spirit. One of these spiritual laws is that a price of suffering must be paid for every act of harm. " "Because of the anger and pain I would cause them, my loved ones would be unable to store up the goodness that they were meant to pass on to others. I would be held responsible for the damages - or the lack of good - they would do while immersed in the pain of my selfish death. And I would pay dearly for it, since spiritual laws dictate that all of the harm, including lack of good, stemming from my death be punished by a measure of suffering. Even though I couldn't foresee the ripple effect my death would cause, I would be held accountable." http://www.near-death.com/experiences/suicide04.html http://www.near-death.com/experiences/suicide06.html Seem's like when we kill ourselves we are playing with fire. And not the fires of hell, but rather upsetting the apple cart of the universe. Just some food for thought.