I had an appt with my psychologist today, it didn't go well :cry: She wants me to consider if the therapy is helping. I've been working with her for over a year now & yeah I've had setbacks but that's expected surely? She pretty much said today that she doesn't think I am trying as much as I could be. In my opinion I thought I was doing good, I go to work, I go out, I try to have a life. Fair enough I don't get out as much as I should but I make the effort & I work hard to get myself out all the time. It just feels that it isn't good enough. We spoke about how my family aren't aware of my situation re depression, I think she feels that if I told them then somehow I would be cured. But telling my family is not an option & she knew that from the start, so why do I feel like she is penalising me for it now. If she decides that we aren't going to do therapy anymore then I don't know what will happen. Psychiatry have already discharged me & I think if this latest med doesn't work then the GP & CPN are going to stop seeing me too. This must be my 5th or 6th med now & none of them seem to work for me. I just feel like I am a lost cause, surely they can't all stop seeing me & leave me to fend for myself cos I am barely coping as it is & it would me a million times worse without their support. I don't think I can describe what I feel anymore, numb, that's about it.