Your only passion is taken from you because they were trying to "fix" you.. and now you feel that spark to try again, but are afraid to loose that passion just as you had before.. when you cannot stick to anything because the fear you have causes you to hate any passion or spark of intrest u may have in anything.. when you feel you can never stay anywhere.. never hold to anything.. because it is always taken from you.. What happens when you have had dreams of a future.. a bleak future full of destruction, sadness, hate, and a whole world against you an a group of 3 or 4 others.. just because you have become different from the world.. because you see the truth.. because you fight for a true freedom.. Am i crazy..? Do i make this up to make me feel important..? Is it really worth it..? What will fufill me..? I cannot find that answer.. i cannot fill that desire.. need.. to make my life feel worth it.. You tell me i need a job.. a home.. a housr.. all the material possessions you have.. when i know what i value.. i do not value these things.. i do not hold value to material objects so i may be considered "higher" in this society.. i find these things to be of little use.. A home.. a shelter.. why must i live like everyone else? Why must i play this "game"? I'm living in a world that feels so wrongly immature..