What happens when this place just turns into somewhere else to put on a front? I've been putting on a mask of happiness and content for about 4 years now. I do this to everyone - to my family to stop them freaking out, to my friends to stop being alienated, and from my girlfriends to stop them thinking I was an emotional wreck and leaving me (although they did anyway). Also, because I work in retail I have to put on a forced smile anyway, so I only let myself go and act "normally" (eg, suicidal) when there's no-one else around. That's why I thought this place was so great, because I didn't have to put on my fake-happiness and jokey nature (which I'm constantly told is "hilarious", even though I wish I could just be normal). Problem is, this place is like any other forum - it has it's own cliques and groups of friends, groups to which I am a stranger. That's not anyones fault, it's the same in all walks of life. But because I'm a loner here as I am in the real world, I feel like I have to fake myself here as I do everywhere else. I posted my problems on here, and the thread sank without a single reply. I feel this place is just somewhere else for me to be alone amidst everyone else, and when the refuge turns into the rest of the world, what do you do?