I don't like saying my feelings alot, I don't cut or do drugs so I have little release. I see my therapist once a week for 45 minutes, it's the only thing I look foward to, but it isn't enough. I don't have any real life friends, and I avoid almost all social situations. I haven't left the house in a week and a half. I feel the loneliest I have ever felt in my life. I can't handle it any more, i've let my family and all those around me down with my seclusion, they all think I hate them because I don't talk to them. I don't know what to do, i'm too ashamed to let anyone look at me.