I've had depression as long as i can remember. 10...11?...maybe 12 years now. that's more than half my life...i just....want it to end, i don't care about the cost. I've tried to kill myself, but i was stupid about it. I don't cut myself because i'm too smart to know that the statistical chance of dying from a cut isn't as good as many of the other options available (ex. car accident, gun shot, OD, over toxicity (of practicaly any pharmaceutical drug)). I just want it to end and i'm not sure i have the strength required to kill myself. So i'm hoping that i can find an alternative. I'll give anything for it to end. Even if i become a robot from the the drugs i'm givin, i just don't care, i just want nothig more than for this feeling to end. And my question is; has anyone here tried hypnotherapy? or anything else? i'm willing to do anything at this point.