I hate trying to talk about how I'm feelin with my gf everytime I do it's aw is it my fault what did I do . For once maybe is not all about you or us . It's me just me . My problems my depression my suicidal feelings . Get mad yu don't understand . Get mad when I say nothin is wrong . Or when I just don't wanna talk about it with yu . Cause that helps a suicidal person . I'm so sick of turnin to her for help and understanding and it turning into a fight and then I feel 5x worse then when I started the day . I'm done trying I'm done caring . I'll go off myself and then yu can sit around and blame yourself If Thas wht yu want cause at end of the day it's all about yu right.