Not being depressed does not hinge on anything getter better. I'm convinced of it. Lot's a things have gotten better for me and I'm still depressed. What I need is to continue my program. The one that works for me and not deviate from it. People keep telling me "what I do wrong" and I go back to trying to live a "normal" life and I come crashing back down. I take my meds, I follow my simple schedule, and I don't do too much. When I'm feeling better I can do something extra but I can't keep doing the extra stuff beyond a day. Argh! There's so much I want to do, that I can't do because I can't do that much activity without crash and burn. I hate it. I know this is a cycle and right now I'm in that part of the cycle that does not feel good and I'm angry. What I need is to take care of myself and do what I know I can do and let the rest go.