Would they care? Would it hurt them as much as it hurts you? "Guys, I want to kill myself." Would they take you seriously? Would they feel too awkward to do anything at all? "Guys, I'm bipolar, that's why you only ever see me when I'm eccentric. Do you ever think about the days on end when you don't see me?" Would they try to help? Would they ask more questions? "Why are you depressed? Why have you only just mentioned this now?" Would they be angry? Would they judge you? "If you're so suicidal, then why are you here? We all get 'depressed' from time to time - you just need to man up" Should I leave a note? What should I say? "..." In truth, there is nothing that I, nor anybody else, can say. This has got nothing to do with me wanting to kill myself. I just don't really want to exist right now. How do you explain that to somebody? And why would I want to? It's a cliché to say that nobody cares, but that really is the truth of the matter. I don't think many mean to be ignorant; we're all just so caught up in our own shit, it's hard to take on somebody else's pain as well, even if it is in plain sight. Hidden in plain sight. That's my life.