What if what you fear is real? I heard today from our boss that there will definitely be lay-offs where I work, just before Christmas or after the new year. I am in the union and although my boss said they don't want to lose me, I am in line to be replaced by one of the laid off workers with more seniority. That would be the end. I would lose all my insurance, which I carry since my husband is self employed. I currently take quite a few meds, do ECT and go to therapy, all of which would have to end. My husband didn't pay his taxes for ....I don't know how long, but we are now in debt to the tune of 100,000+. You see death would be much better for everybody, well not my grandchildren. I would miss them more than anything and they are the only thing from keeping me from doing it tonight. Suicide is inevitable.......I feel bad.