What if,, for 13 years you had fought with hating yourself for the one mistake you had made in your life what if,, in that time you had realized that due to the criminal record you would never find work or have a home in your name what if,, youve struggled to rebuild family relationships with your parents and children only to learn that your mistake has shattered their lives and echos even know and each day is painful for them because of you what if,, you knew if people knew your past they would want you dead and you HAVE to tell those you start to get close to... What if,, they then break a promise and tell someone?? What if,, that person is unpredictable and you spend every waking moment thinking someone will come to hurt you? what if ,, you find out the thing youve studied and devoted your life to for the last 4 years is now impossible because of this past mistake due to 'restrictions' that were not correctly explained. What if,, you learn you cannot marry the man you love who has asked you to be his wife because that would mean telling his family about that past which could tear them apart and cause arguments. There is no such thing as second chances, there is no such thing as a light at the end of the tunnel, there is no such thing as learning from your mistakes and moving on,,,there is only this.