so maybe it IS my fault... I want to ask him so badly, but I can't he's already getting so much at his plate with that letter.. I can't add any more to that than I'm already doing I'm so scared. What if... ...he will say that it IS my fault ...he will say that I deserve all this ...he will come and get me ...he will call me ...he will put me in a ward ...he will lock me up ...he will cut off all contact forever but most of all what if he will reply saying that he doesn't love me, or that he hates me? :cry: :cry: maybe I should just act happy and apologize and go back to living at their place and just work there and act happy? Be what they want me to be?