If you are contimplating suicide you need to look back and ask you self have I truly explored all my options. Suicide is final, there is no turning back once you have commted. Let us here at the forum offer advice and support you to a positive outlook on life. I am suicidal and always will be. I have learned to put it on the back burner for now. I really have nothing to look forward to. No spouce, no education, no job, no friends other than the ones I have met here, no thoughts of a future. Even though I have all those negative thoughts I get up every morning and tell myself it won't be today. You have to live for the day. Don't set expectations, or long term goals. The way you are feeling right now you need to set small goals to accomplish on a dailey basis. If you don't acheive your goal for the day, just add it back to the list and try it another day. Don't fret it if you don't succeed. Just keep moving forward. Take Care!~Joseph~