To put my dilema into context I will have to go back to how it all started... 11 years ago this October, when I was 10 years old, I was violently attacked by two men, aged 21 and 18. I was beaten over the shoulder by these men with a plank of wood. Ever since I found it hard to even step outside my front door, and knowing the attackers lived not too far away didn't help. Soon they moved away and I started getting a little better but they came back and I went down hill again. Fast forwarding to now, I still hadn't been outside my home in all that time, not on my own at least, but now I am in University and living on my own, a huge step for me, and I'm proud I did it....but the problem is this: I haven't made a single friend yet, I try my best to talk to people as much as I can, but I'm scared, I shake so much I look like an idiot. At first they understood, but recently they have started to ignore me, talk as if I'm not there and when I try to talk they disappear to somewhere else and just leave me in the dark. I'm terrified that I wont be able to make friends here, I'm scared that the rest of my life will be spent alone, I dont know what to do anymore... I just want to quit and hide away in my room untill I die.