Hello its me summer again.. i was too scared to come out and say this because well i love my family to death but i hate what they do and i want to just get this off my chest.. So if i ever caused any confusion with my recent posts i will calmly explain what is going on currently.. because i have seem to have been freaking out in my other posts.. in my past posts when i first came to this forum, i explained i was being bullied in elementary school for the way i looked and that i had a temper problem well around the time that i was being bullied, My grandparents stopped spanking me and began to show signs of abusive behavior..
They would hit me (with belts and their bare hands) sometimes and they would leave marks like bruises and red marks but they would go away afterward.. this all started when i was either 8, 9 or 10 they stopped spanking me. this one time around those ages, my grandpa and i were arguing and he grabbed both of my arms and lifted and practically pushed me on the bed hurting my back.. and he bit my nose one time over something i didn't do followed by my grandma hitting my back for it and yelling at me.. My grandma hits me with belts for stupid reasons and leave red marks but they go away afterward.. my grandpa threatens to hit me over stupid reasons too..
I heard there are different kinds of abuse not just psychical i heard there's emotional, verbal etc. my aunt emotionally and verbally does it by calling me names and saying horrible stuff about me calling me "fake bitch" "narcissist" "ugly stupid bitch" or that i have body dysmorphia she would call me a slut she would just do so much horrible things to me making me self harm because of it... shes been doing it for years...
I finally came out and spoke to a teacher about it and i told him not to report anything to cps or police or athourities... i JUST wanted a therapist to talk to about this. about how i feel. instead he calls cps and i was freaking out and having a panic attack that i was going to get taken away from my family. yes they hurt me yes they do terrible things but i love them to death if i got taken away from my family i would have nowhere else to go but to a stranger who i never met at all... and i dont want to be with a stranger i want to be with blood. with family. with places that are familiar to me...
But the social service lady came and i talked to her and i just lied and told her everything was fine when really im hurting... she must have not believed me and now the police are involved in the situation. and my aunt would not stop calling me names, saying horrible things about me she told me i was useless and that my family would be better off without me and that she didnt love me... she makes me so insecure about myself and makes me want to die.. and at the least just want comfort or advice... i explained this best as i could and hope to get some help out of this.. i just dont want to say anything to any police, cps, social services because im afraid of what would happen.. life is seriously stressful and i am going through alot right now and i just need comfort... words of strength or anything at all... just wanted to say this so you guys would understand whats going on better..
~ Summer
They would hit me (with belts and their bare hands) sometimes and they would leave marks like bruises and red marks but they would go away afterward.. this all started when i was either 8, 9 or 10 they stopped spanking me. this one time around those ages, my grandpa and i were arguing and he grabbed both of my arms and lifted and practically pushed me on the bed hurting my back.. and he bit my nose one time over something i didn't do followed by my grandma hitting my back for it and yelling at me.. My grandma hits me with belts for stupid reasons and leave red marks but they go away afterward.. my grandpa threatens to hit me over stupid reasons too..
I heard there are different kinds of abuse not just psychical i heard there's emotional, verbal etc. my aunt emotionally and verbally does it by calling me names and saying horrible stuff about me calling me "fake bitch" "narcissist" "ugly stupid bitch" or that i have body dysmorphia she would call me a slut she would just do so much horrible things to me making me self harm because of it... shes been doing it for years...
I finally came out and spoke to a teacher about it and i told him not to report anything to cps or police or athourities... i JUST wanted a therapist to talk to about this. about how i feel. instead he calls cps and i was freaking out and having a panic attack that i was going to get taken away from my family. yes they hurt me yes they do terrible things but i love them to death if i got taken away from my family i would have nowhere else to go but to a stranger who i never met at all... and i dont want to be with a stranger i want to be with blood. with family. with places that are familiar to me...
But the social service lady came and i talked to her and i just lied and told her everything was fine when really im hurting... she must have not believed me and now the police are involved in the situation. and my aunt would not stop calling me names, saying horrible things about me she told me i was useless and that my family would be better off without me and that she didnt love me... she makes me so insecure about myself and makes me want to die.. and at the least just want comfort or advice... i explained this best as i could and hope to get some help out of this.. i just dont want to say anything to any police, cps, social services because im afraid of what would happen.. life is seriously stressful and i am going through alot right now and i just need comfort... words of strength or anything at all... just wanted to say this so you guys would understand whats going on better..
~ Summer