I feel like I'm walking around like a zombie. It's like I'm dead. I hardly leave the house and I sit staring at the Tv all day. I can't get the motivation to do anything. I seem to be fascinated with hospital programmes and I even search for 'critical care units' on google and then save pictures of intensive care units, studying the surroundings by the bed ie the ventilator. I spend my money on magazines which I buy religiously almost every day. It's weird because it's like I get a thrill out of buying these magazines. Every Tuesday I buy around 10 magazines in one go. It's so bad that I feel embarrassed and abnormal. I'm obsessed with suicide (it used to be self injury) and I could spend hours researching peoples opinions on it.. like what would be classed as a suicide attempt and what would be classed as self harm. I ALSO see objects moving around the room and I often see my own face infront of me. It's strange. Anyway, what is going on?