What is it about waking up..?

Discussion in 'Mental Health Disorders' started by GreyCat, Sep 10, 2011.

Thread Status:
Not open for further replies.
  1. GreyCat

    GreyCat Well-Known Member

    I am reducing my meds, because I want to change them. They work very well for stopping my depression but I don't like their side effects. It's a real pain, that is.

    Anyway, I forget the way I feel constantly in my unmedicated state. I just feel normal on my antidepressants.

    I fell asleep this afternoon and when I awoke WHOOSH this feeling of absolute sorrow was upon me, before I knew I was awake a thousand miserable things were on my mind, and this awful, defeated, broken hearted feeling that was my norm for so long, until medication made me realise how wrong my chemicals are.

    I know some of you must understand this, it's on waking that I feel most depressed, and I think that's pretty normal. But the sorrow is unreal. I feel sick with dread and hopelessness, I feel intense guilt for all I have done, or not done, and I get stricken by grief for people who are gone, every time I wake up when I'm not on meds. I need to be medicated obviously, but in order to switch I need to come off what I'm on. The transit just seems really daunting. The morning depression kills me, it really does.
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    i understand totally hun i hope this transition goes quickly so you can get back to living again without all that sadness hugs
     
  3. GreyCat

    GreyCat Well-Known Member

    Thanks Eclipse! Hope all is well with you. I find writing these things on this forum very therapeutic. It is nice to be understood.
     
  4. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Good luck switching to a new medicine! :hug: All the best...Mr. A
     
  5. GreyCat

    GreyCat Well-Known Member

    Thank you Mr.A. I felt better when I woke up this morning, which is good.
     
  6. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    :arms:
     
Thread Status:
Not open for further replies.