Many of you know this about me, and many of you don't. I am bi-polar with severe depression. And I often just don't want help. I don't want to help myself, I don't want to work. I just want to inject something into me that makes me immediately happy again. And if no one's offering it to me then I don't want it. This is why I refuse to go to any more therapists, because they don't give cures, just tools that I'll toss aside and go on being miserable. People here, give tools and I'm really only willing to try them if I think I'll get quick, easy and/or instant gratification. And then when it doesn't I just sigh and resume being miserable. What is a person like this supposed to do? Be miserable for the rest of their life? Stop seeking help? I just don't see what purpose someone like me has in the world or society at large. How am I going to get anywhere if I've given up to the point where I just toss away any tools given to me? Do people like me just belong locked up for the rest of their lives? Everything is so unclear for someone like me.