Sorry this is the 1st post of mine, I am not sure where to put this because its a thought about what suicide is. No other forums seemed to fit this so I put it here, if anyone wants to move it feel free. I have been thinking alot about killing myself, I think the only reason I haven't done it is because I am unsure on what happens on the other side when you kill yourself. My past, since I was 12 I realized religion wasnt what it was and was wondering if god was real, which lead me into the research of death from satanism to new age. I have come across alot of things in my life that indicate that when a person kills themselves things are not as hell'ish as one might seem. According to Near Death Experiences(NDE'S) who have had nde's from suicide is that they feel unconditional love on the other side and how god yells at them for not completely thier tasks and makes them come back. there have been last life regressions that talk about people who have committed suicide and the spirits on the other side were not to happy about thier ending thier lives and make them look over and ask why they did it and most are made to come back within 3 to 5 yrs of the suicide. But, some NDE's have stated some things along these lines. I guess you would call it hell as of matter of speaking, not typical bible hell but hell. where people are walking around in thier own thought muttering things and so on wondering why they killed themselves in the 1st place.(this is one that i am afraid of) that they continue on about how screwed up thier lives were and why they killed themselves. But through the research of NDE's and past life regressions I have also come to a conclusion, we are all here for a reason, just because the majority state it isnt good to kill yourself does it make it wrong? years ago samari's considered it a honor to kill themselves. today we have people who do suicide bombs and are honored for it.(I know sorry just making a point) Who is to say that suicide is bad, we all have a purpose here and that we all have something to do in the big scheme of things. Maybe it is some of the peoples jobs when they are here to kill themselves to give lessons(this planned pre birth, not reflecting how you feel towards an individual) to people around them to feel loss, hurt, angler and so on. This is something else that I have been thinking about also. There was a quote not so long ago that came about something like this.. I am having thoughts like this because I have have had alot of pain in my life, I have been thinking about this, but with everything I feel that i need to be right about what I do. I am just sharing this with people who have had someone die, plan on killing themselves and so on. It is for educational reasons only. People only like to tell people it isnt good, I dont find that suicide is bad, its a way of like. It is the 3rd leading cause of death between people ages of 18 and 24, and it goes with people all the time. I believe also if it were such a bad idea that whoever/whatever made us would not program that into out minds to be in there at all. Suicide I believe is done however by free will(Ya contradiction I know I am giving thoughts so shoot me.) which I believe when we feel that it is our time we would know. which leads us to be suicidal and want to kill ourselves, God will tell us otherwise whether we are screwing up. Anyway Here are some thoughts for people both suicidal and ones who have lost others through the act, I am just trying to put into perspective of the situation so i know it is the right thing to do. Maybe another post i will share my issues for now however I will leave this post. Thanks for looking, if you have comments I will try and answer them for you. And yes my spelling and grammar sucks, thank you. I research well though.