I'm sure everyone asks the same question, but i'm wondering to myself just how do I overcome this lowness. I wasn't always depressed, at least I think not. I was always shy and reserved, but at 16/17 coinciding with when I went to college, it all came down on me at once. From then on I seem to have lost of part of myself, and became incredibly down. At that time I was in a terrible state mentally. For the past four years my depression has probably increased, but i'm more confident in myself because i've matured, but I still have this depression which blackens my mind and numbs my thoughts and emotions. I'm scared how long it can go on for because i've been totally isolated for a few years now. I haven't progressed in life like everyone else. I had to drop out of education, and i've never worked. I'm lucky in one way I can be reliant on my parents, but this is a dire situation. I've started seeing a councilor (one session so far), can this be the answer? Can they give me the confidence and encouragement to get out of the house and do something, and with that my depression will begin to lift? I can get out of the house to go places, albeit I have bad anxiety, sometimes I even feel good when i've been out, sometimes. Could my depression all be down to lack of 'life experience' through isolating myself from the outside world? Or is medication truly the answer? The doctor suggested my seratonin levels may be off, which induces depression, but i'm scared to death of the idea, and don't want to become reliant on them. She said they make you worse before you get better. I asked if I could 'experiment' to see if they do help and she is correct, but she said they have to be taken long term. I don't really know what i'm getting at here. I'd like to know what approaches people have taken to dealing with it all? I hope to god the councilor can relax me and lift me somehow. I need to gain independence to get out of this isolation i've created. I don't want to have to turn to medication, but if there's no other way.. so be it.