What is the point?

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Pasco007, Oct 8, 2014.

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  1. Pasco007

    Pasco007 Account Closed

    Hi, i am new here. I am 17 about a few months ago i was in a car wreck with my two best friends and my girlfriend that i had been with since like 12 years old. Well on our way home from the movies a drunk driver slammed into us and my two best friends and my girlfriend died and i was the only one to survive and i wish i hadn't. Now i am going to have back problems and back pain probably the rest of my life cause of it. My parents and older sister i know are trying to help me but they can't every day at school everyone gives me that look like it is my fault. My girlfriends parents still haven't forgiven me. I keep wondering why i was left alie and i wish i hadn't been honestly its just too much. Parents are worried because i have started to sleep around a lot but its the only time i feel anything at all. No one seems to understand my pain ever. I have honestly been debating off'ing myself have an entire bottle of pain killers for my back and just wanting to take em all. :/ I suppose one positive is my parents taking me next week to get a tattoo in remembrance next week. Don't know what to do........
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    If it was not your fault then why do they blame you that does not make sense. If you are in pain then ask to see a pain specialist to help you cope with the pain ok
    sleeping around will only bring you more pain emotionally it will You are 17 hell you have just started to live you get therapy to deal with trauma you have lived through
    you were kept alive for a reason don't throw your life away not so soon ok live to honor your friends live to keep their memory alive hugs
     
  3. Unknown_111

    Unknown_111 Forum Buddy Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I'm so sorry that you are in a horrible situation. Like the above post, you are not responsible for this and please do not do anything. You are young and deserve to live your life. You need to speak to a school councillor and tell them what's happening to you. At this moment of your life you feel low but YOU NOT RESPONSIBLE. The person RESPONSIBLE is the drink driver. PLEASE DO NOT ANYTHING AS YOUR PARENTS AND SISTER WOULD MISS YOU. Please keep posting here as people will support you.
     
  4. Pasco007

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    I see a therapist and a psychiatrist but I don't think It's helping. Can't ever sleep. Cause of my back. Parents making me keep my door open now and took the lock off. -____-
     
  5. Unknown_111

    Unknown_111 Forum Buddy Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Think your parents are very concerned and you need to explain your feelings. It's going to take time to recover and the process will take time. It's no overnight cure and you should express your feelings. I suggest that you use the diary facility here to express your feelings.

    If everyone thinks it's your fault, it's only because you survived. You are paying a heavy emotional burden which is not required. You are suffering enough with your injury for the rest of your life.

    Do not do anything as it will take time to recover and just appreciate as each day goes by. It's fine to cry as it releases the emotion your feel. REMEMBER YOU ARE IMPORTANT AND DESERVE TO LIVE. PM me anytime you want to talk.
     
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