So today I have been sitting around wondering what have I experienced? Then I wonder what is there left to experience? Then that list becomes what is worth experiencing? When I throw the worth experiencing list out there suddenly there is nothing. The list is empty, when I think of this list suddenly all hope vanishes. Suddenly I wonder why I did not kill myself 2 months ago? Why am I still here? What is keeping me here? I need some help. What is worth sticking around for? If I can't find something my birthday will signal the end.