If you don't get enjoyment out of life, what is there? Should I really spend so much effort creating a life for myself, which in this day means make money to be able to exist, if I'm not even interested in life? Maybe it's the psychosis talking...but I am unable to feel love for my family or my girlfriend. I'm unable to feel happy. I don't want to work hard at University just so I can get some slave wage job. The only time I feel like being alive is when I'm stoned out of my mind. I'm so confused about what to do with my life, and I need to make a decision fast. I'm running out of options. Maybe I should just end it? What happens to your body if you take <Mod Edit, WildCherry: Methods>? I don't even know why I'm writing this. I've been searching for these answers for years and no one has been able to say anything to me that made me feel like the effort and hardship was really worth it.