I um, I will only say that im young, and I dont tell this to anyone because they will tell me, "ou its just that your young, itll pass,or O you just do it for attention, and I well get disappointed because im trying to get help, not to get this type of answers. Lately I've had many moments of desperation, because I just dont feel happy. I do good in school, im good at sports, get good grades and all but I just feel I dont feel happy with myself. My parents have very high expectations of me and want me to be top of this top of that and I do it, either way they dont care at the end, but I feel I cant keep with it much longer. I often isolate myself from people, I dont have a friends(since my best childhood friend died when I was 6 ) and cant trust anyone but a girl i sometimes talk to, but I dont want to tell her how I really am because I fear she might go away. I have tried suicide 3 times already and failed, I lately I dont see a point in staying here. I dont have a reason to get up from bed. Everything is just routine. I'm getting tired and dont know what to do. I often ask myself who would notice if I died. And I get to the same answer, probably nobody.